At one point in my life I was filled with gibe comments full of the purest form of derision towards my peers, funny (i thought) anecdotes borne of cynicism, and sorrow and confusion when confronted with the depressive side of my manic-depressive disorder.

Now as I've gotten older, I feel as if  I'm becoming less and less cynical, less and less angsty... Which is strange, because I always thought things would be the other way around... That as life went on I would become increasingly cynical as I discovered more and more the rotten ways of the world.

Luckily, that hasn't been the case.  I shudder to think what my mindset would be like now had I taken that path.  Definitely not as happy and content with myself and the world around me as I am now.

Changed my profile picture for the first time in about 3 years.  So sexy.  That other photo had become such a part of my online existence that it's actually kind of hard to let it go.  Even if it was absolutely not what I look like in real life.  This picture shows my personality a bit more anyhow.

Anyways, only 1 person followed through properly on the PIF, so I'm opening up the floor again to two more lucky contestants.  BTW, you won't be getting your gifts until after christmas.  Sorry in advance.

I
will send a handmade gift to the first 3 people who leave a comment on
my blog requesting to join this PIF exchange. The only thing you have
to do in return is pay it forward by making the same promise on your
blog.

Once you've made the same promise on your blog, email me your address to ambiguous@gmail.com... I'll notify you whether or not I'll be sending you a present via e-mail.

I caught this from Brent. 

I
will send a handmade gift to the first 3 people who leave a comment on
my blog requesting to join this PIF exchange. The only thing you have
to do in return is pay it forward by making the same promise on your
blog.

I caught this from Brent. 

Who caught this from Cang.

I recently switched jobs from being a graphic designer to pursue a career in web development and my old company is having problems filling my shoes. 

If you have experience in graphic design and can handle yourself around HTML and are located in Orange County, this is the place for you.

E-mail me at ambiguous@gmail.com with your resume, a cover letter, and some samples of your work.

=]

http://myanimelist.net/profile/madpimp

Apparently, I've seen a lot of anime.

http://myanimelist.net/animelist/madpimp

What's sad is... This list isn't complete.

wow. over 80 days of anime, not including the ones i've rewatched over and over.

I want to be that kind stranger that I've always wanted to run into.

It's not that I don't feel blessed most of the time. And it's not that I don't appreciate everything I have every day.

It just always shocks me so much whenever I get a full glimpse of how quickly our day to day lives can be affected [sometimes permanently], just by one misstep, one second, whether by ourselves, by someone close, or by a complete stranger.

So, i got this message the other day on my other blog:

well.. | Kimisoldandfat@uglyass.com | IP: 76.104.189.152

girl you’re fucking old I cannot believe you are still blogging. Dumb fuck.

Aug 24, 9:26 PM — [ Edit | Delete | View Post ]

Granted, I did start blogging in 1999 -- almost 10 years ago, I really don't see how I'm too old [I'm 24!]?  Plus, if I was young before, wouldn't i still be the same age in comparison to whoever wrote this?

Strange.  I must have done something bad a long time ago.

So I've had a headache for the past week and a half and I finally went to the doctor. He gave me steroids and told me that I might have PMS with out the period in the next few days.

Wish me luck. Better yet, wish my boyfriend luck.

Observing people at work, I recognize three different types of people. People who seem like they're acting like themselves all the time, people who act fake in front of clients, and then people who just seem genuinely insincere in all of their daily work-related encounters.

What really bothers me is when two equally insincere people start having a "friendly" conversation with each other talking about their "personal" lives. It irritates me to see people who obviously don't care about what the other person is saying [and probably don't care about they're saying, either] talking to each other like they're buddies.

Give it up. You're not fooling anyone, even yourself, into thinking that you're a nice person that actually cares about their coworkers.

On that note, don't expect me to bend over backwards for you because of your 'nice guy/girl' persona, either. I've seen your true colors come out whenever you feel as if your profits or image are threatened in the slightest.

Irritating.

I have to admit, if I'm to be categorized, I'd probably go under the category of being a different person around clients. Much of it is because I'd probably scare away our clients if I acted like my normal geeky self.

What type of work persona do you have?