March 11, 2009

  • Endless downward spiral

    Nothing does me in quite as well as being sick. Being sick makes me lose energy and become unable to work. Which causes me to feel massive amounts of guilt and pressure. Which for some strange reason causes me to make a mess out of my house and home. Which then makes me really tired. Which then makes me want to do nothing. Which then leads to even more guilt and pressure. Which then makes me leave things even messier... And the cycle continues.

    I went to bed last night with the resolve to go to work regardless of how crappy I felt, since I've missed work since last Thursday and the only thing that helps me get out of my rut is generally to resume daily activities. I woke up this morning with an eye infection. Really, God? Really?

    The perfect red cherry to sit atop my giant banana split-esque mountain of laundry, dirty dishes, bodily meltdowns and mental woes.

    I write this on my laptop at work as I'm quarantined away to the conference room at work. Coughing away and spreading my disease through this place. Strangely enough, though I feel like poop (and am falling asleep at the keyboard as I type), making it here makes me feel 1000x better mentally than staying at home and nursing my (viral i.e. incurable) infection.

    Proving to myself I'm not a huge loser that stays at home and reads manga all day motivates me.

    What do you do when you're stuck in a rut?

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